I’ve been praying a lot about it, and instead of goals for this year, God has given me a word – TRUST.
What? I called back to my Maker. A word. One? How can I possibly plan a year with one word? I am an organizer, a planner, a write-it-in-ink in my date book (preferably in colored ink to code the activity) kind of girl. I write out goals, lists of them with separate categories amidst the lists. What should I do with that broken relationship? Should I forgive? Should I reach out? Should I sever it? What about my writing? Should I continue my existing series? Branch out into something new? Focus more time on speaking? To every question I ask, God repeats the same answer again and again, “Trust me. Completely. One step at a time. Trust.”
I can’t help but think of the scene in Frozen where Elsa flees Arendelle. She takes one step on the lake and it freezes solid beneath her foot. She takes another step and the water beneath her second foot also freezes. Knowing the only path for her is forward she decides to run, trusting completely that the lake will freeze beneath her feet, holding her up, every step of the way.
That’s what God is calling me to do. To take one step while He holds me up. Then another, while He freezes untamed waters yet again. I long to see the path, the road, the route highlighted on Google Maps. But that’s not for me to see right now.
How much this scenario reminds me of Peter that night in the boat. Jesus held out His hand to Peter, coaxing Peter to walk on water towards Him, towards safety and light and excitement and joy. And as long as Peter was willing to trust that his next step across the sea would be held up, he walked. As soon as Peter looked down, away from Christ, as soon as he stopped trusting, he sank.
So, my goal for 2014 is to keep my eyes on Christ—to trust Him. And every time I catch myself looking elsewhere, listening to the wrong voices, believing things other than His truth, my goal is to turn my eyes back to Him. If I feel my ankles getting wet, or my calves damp or the hem of my skirt getting splashed, because I’m sinking, my intention is to return my focus to trusting Him, completely, before I go down.
When Elsa truly trusts the power she’s been given, she is able to build staircases in mid air faster than she can climb them. She can create spectacular castles and crystals when she lets go of her fears. I can’t wait to see what God enables me to do when I trust Him.
It’s not going to be easy. I’ll know that if I falter, the icy waters wait just inches below me. They will swirl and whirl and pull me down. But if I trust, fully trust, then I also know it doesn’t matter what’s below me or behind me or before me. It only matters that I do it with Christ. And if I do that, my footing will be secure and my path amazing. Yup, all I need is one word.
What about you? Do you have a word for 2014?
1/14/2014 10:27:42 am
This is a beautiful example of giving everything over to God. Simon Peter is my favorite. Things are stirring all around you and under and over you and I can't wait to see what He brings out of this time of wandering. "But I trust in you, O Lord; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in your hand." I love you.
1/14/2014 10:58:16 am
This time of wandering is refreshing. Not having a list to tend to, actually turning everything over to Christ, knowing He's in charge is liberating. Love you right back.
1/14/2014 10:41:41 am
I haven't seen this yet. But, I really want to. I actually heard Let it Go last night at work on Pandora. Such a good song.
1/14/2014 10:56:18 am
April, you have to see Frozen! It is beautiful! Thanks for the kind words. Yes, this will be a year of trusting and trusting some more for me. It's amazing how freeing it is to turn it all over to Christ.
1/14/2014 11:00:01 am
Love it! You've inspired me to think of a word. Maybe "shower," as in "try to take one every day." Ha! :) God has big plans, Sister! Excited to watch them unfold!!
1/15/2014 02:09:35 am
We'll listen together and be amazed by what He has to tell us!
1/14/2014 11:02:17 am
I loved this Laura :) I didn't get a word so much as a phrase that He is to be my quiet retreat. I'm still unpacking what all that means, but thus far I feel like it means I'm to turn to Him, rest in Him, and rely on Him for rejuvenation.
1/15/2014 02:10:59 am
Quit retreat. I LOVE that! Our pastor just talked last week about how Jesus longs to refresh and renew us. What a wonderful thought. You deserve rest, my friend. Can't think of anywhere better to get it than through Christ.
1/15/2014 02:11:40 am
Oops - typing too fast, make that QUIET with an E retreat :)
1/14/2014 09:47:42 pm
Thanks for sharing your heart, Laura. You inspire me. Very excited to see how God speaks into your steps this year. Expecting pics of you dancing on water, yes I am!
1/15/2014 02:13:16 am
Love the visual, Raj. Time to put on my dancing shoes :)
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