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HIDE AND GO SEEK

6/28/2013

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A game of hide and go seek in the woods
I’ve been playing various evolutions of Hide and Go Seek all of my life.

My kids and I played the other day. I was elected IT, of course. They hid. I didn’t see them. Any of them. And I have four kids. I ducked my head in tunnels and under picnic tables. I peered behind park benches and around the sculpture I love of a deconstructed bicycle. We’d set boundaries, so they couldn’t be too far. We’d played at this park hundreds of times, so I felt they must be safe. Right? Still, I felt momentary panic—that shuffle in my heart.

I put my hand over my eyes like a shield, as if it would give me x-ray vision. It didn’t. I took a deep yoga breath. I even opened the door to the port-a-potty, no lie. I’d do anything at this point to find them. I caved and started calling their names. One by one they revealed themselves. One was folded behind a trashcan. Another was crammed under bushes. A third splayed flat against a corn hole board.  The last had been darting from spot to spot. But that anxiety of not being able to find them, unsettled me for a while. 

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little boy coming out from his hiding place
My daughter’s asked, “What took you so long? I wondered where you were.” The tension goes both ways – not finding and not being found.

For the hider there’s the thrill of looking for the perfect hiding place and the pressure to find one before the IT gets to twenty. Finding a spot is exciting at first. The whole no-one-knows-where-I-am-freedom. And then, your mind wanders. And the peaceful imagining is blissful for a while. But eventually, there is that wonder—what if nobody finds me? What if they forget I was playing? Or can’t get the door behind me open? What if they think I went home? Or get distracted and move on to something else?

I’ve been playing various evolutions of Hide and Go Seek with God my whole life. 
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I hate to admit it, but sometimes I hide from God
I hate to admit it, but there have been times when I’ve hidden from Him. And when I hide from my Father, it sometimes feels adventurous at first. There is a weird buzz of rebellion. But not for long. When I attempt to do something He hasn’t planned for me, or something I truly need Him for, but I’m trying to do it alone, it doesn’t take long before I find myself not as excited as I thought I would be. Not as fulfilled. And soon, I feel lacking, empty, excluded. I ache for Him to find me. 
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Jesus is the ultimate IT
Gratefully, He is the ultimate IT. He always finds me. Sometimes He comes right up to the wall I’ve backed myself up against, or the façade I’m hiding behind. Other times, I realize how badly I need Him and crawl out of my hiding place, back to His open arms and the love He always offers.

But the best times of my life are when I seek Christ. Because when I seek Him, He’s always there. He never, ever hides from me. He simply loves me, because I am seeking Him.

Are you hiding or seeking today?
3 Comments
April
6/28/2013 12:11:14 pm

This is some good food for thought. Your posts make me wish I could come hear you speak sometime. <3

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Laura L. Smith link
6/30/2013 06:42:08 am

April, I would love to meet you in person sometime! I would love to have you hear me speak. Wished I lived closer or you did :(

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April
7/2/2013 09:58:09 pm

I wish I lived closer too!




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